separatism is so unrealistic unlike getting men to be nicer which is a very promising and no doubt fruitful project
“female-only societies are a pipe dream!” really because there’s many examples of successful female-only communities and not a single example of a community where men have learned to respect women
and you know what…I was having to endure another texas abortion org using “folks” over and over again when talking about abortion and I have seen exactly NO ONE point out the link between abortion bans and the proliferation of handguns specifically. thats a deadly combination. women are being forced to stay pregnant at the same time that domestic homicides are rising higher and higher and the texas GOP wants to make it easier to get a gun and harder to women to control our own bodies. which in turn makes it easier for men to harm and control us, and to kill us.
I am so exhausted and I just want to feel validated.
Everything I say is wrong, I remember wrong, I know wrong, I believe wrong.
Doubt in everyone’s tone, or eyes; denial about everything I do or say.
I speak up, and I’m aggressive or copping an attitude.
I hold my tongue, and I’m pouty or just assume I’m angry.
Sad thing is underneath it all im always angry, or sad, or both.
I feel like I’m behind 6 inches of plexiglass; I’m screaming and no one hears a damn thing, not a whisper.
I’m not suicidal; I dont want to die.
I just don’t want to live like this anymore.
Change
i have no idea how many of my “followers” are still present after…… 8(?) yearssss but i am scrolling to the beginning of my posts and saving stuff i want to keep and then deleting a tooonnn.
listen i get it, this is the internet, these things are likely somewhere stuffed, forever, and theres nothing i can do about it, and this is what happens with you leave children alone with technology for extended periods of time unsupervised. (when i say extended i really mean 12+ hours at a time if not more *insert upside down smiley*)
so i think its time i suck it up and scroll through 22,000+ posts and screenshotting, cropping, saving, and then deleting, i think i was 13 when i made this account. i posted things i shouldnt have, some im glad i have, stuff that i can reflect on to help remember the things i dont.
but im 21 now and id like to maintain a presence on here, i really appreciate logging in and pouring my heart out to this little world ive made for myself, and i will continue to do so.
but i need a fresh start and every time i log in i am reminded that this isnt my account anymore, it belongs to the teenage version of myself, i need to take it back for myself.
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